I don’t usually make a “New Years Resolution” but there is something I really want to do. I want to write. And the best practice to do that is to maintain a blog. Thus the goal I have set for myself is to write a blog post at least once a week. It’s not hard, but I have never kept up with my blog. One of my motivations for this is my husband. He is always encouraging me to write a blog. And I know he wouldn’t encourage me to do something that he didn’t feel was worth my time or that I didn’t have any talent for.

I know I’m going to forget to post one week. I’m going to have posts that are boring. I’m going to say something offensive, or stupid, or downright ignorant. Sometimes it’s going to sound like a 4 year old wrote it. I’ll change topics halfway through a paragraph. And I’ll reach a point where I no longer want to post what I wrote and that blog will turn into a homage to the pb&j I had for lunch.

It’s going to happen.

But other times I will post from my heart. I will write with conviction. I will share what The Lord has been teaching me. Or a reflection on a teaching I heard. Sometimes there will be a book review, or a movie review. I’ll share about some of my favorite things, and not-so-favorite things. I’ll share praises, major life events, and prayer requests.

This blog will have a lot of ups and downs. And with that I’ll accomplish what I want out of it, to grow. To get better every time. One of my prayers is that I would learn to read my own blog objectively and honestly. To allow myself to be ok when I post something that was less than stellar, and grow from that.

I look forward to this writing journey of 2013. Stay tuned, and let’s see where this takes us.

This past Monday at my Women of Grace bible study, I sat under a wonderful teaching on Rahab. Rahab was a prostitute in Canaan whom only from hearing about the God of Isreal, choose to believe and through great courage she risked everything by hiding two Israelite spies from the authorities. Rahab was blessed by God for her faith. Her and her family were spared the massacre in Canaan and assimilated into Israel. She became a part of the line of David, and ultimately a part of Christ’s lineage. She’s even one of only two women mentioned in Hebrews 11 for her faith. Its safe to say, she left quite a legacy.

I’ve been thinking about Rahab since that teaching. More specifically, I’ve been thinking about myself compared to Rahab. And what it means to be truly courageous for my faith. Rahab risked her life for the sake of seeing God move. That is convicting. In a world where everyone is searching and longing, whether that be for the next joy, thrill, hurt, or experience, we’re all longing. And here I sit, saved by Grace, knowing where the fulfillment of our deepest longing can be satisfied, and I’m afraid to say anything because I don’t want to offend someone… That’s not courageous at all.

Jesus was offensive. He said very unpopular things about the Pharisees and what it really meant to follow God’s law. He was so offensive they crucified Him. 

I’m still working out this courage thing in my heart, so this blog is unfortunately incomplete. But I am going to challenge myself. To be courageous. To be faithful to the end. To really believe what I say, and say what I believe. To be a courageous prostitute. 

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